Light Silk

Here are some of the things you will realize when you go to a cafe alone.

1. People will stare at you. Wondering what are you doing alone.

2. You want to go to the toilet but you can't. Because, who's gonna take care of your stuff? (I was in the middle of something)

3. Lots of mugs on your table. It looks like you're spending so much money but in fact, it is just one drink.

4. You know what you'll be doing at the cafe. You concentrate more when you're alone and no one will tell you they want to go back early.

5. After yr work is done, you will spend a lot of time watching YouTube or discovering Pinterest. What the heck? It is your time! 

6. You'll watch the TV? Why? Because it happens to be right in front of you and the funniest video will be on. You'll laugh by yourself. Sad. Not really. You won't care. Well, I won't care.

7. You won't go back until you're tired and realize you have work tomorrow.

Good night. 

Because:

1. I wasn't organized. I didn't organize what I wanted to blog. I'm just not organized. Next to me is a list of blog tittles. Kinda helping me with ideas of blog posts. I've listed them down. And now it is just for me to blog about them. 

2. Too many excuses. I kept telling myself the reason my blog isn't moving is because of work. I've been postponing/abandoning my blog because of work. You know Liyana, there is this thing called scheduled post? 

3. Trying to figure out what my blog is. This is what they call rebranding. Was it a brand to begin with? I've decided what this blog should be. A lifestyle blog. It can be about anything. My experiences. But I'll write it in a diary kinda way. They say, "relatable". Hence the change in the About The Blog section. 

"This is a blog for me, the author, to share my experience (so far) to the world. This is a sort of diary of mine.  I'll never know who is reading my blog. So, thank you for visiting you wonderful person!"

4. I have expectations. High expectations which I should lower down. I started blogging since 2007. Yes, I blogged since 2009. Aaaah, those years of immaturity at blogging. I blogged about emo stuff. I thought I was great back then. I thought my photos were great! They were great back then! I look back, they looked shit. Well, you know? You get a DSLR and you immediately call yourself a photographer. Hahahaha! What the hell was I thinking? I read so many blogs (another post on that). I followed Song of Style. Drew her, thought it was the bomb! Hella ugly. I also looked at the way I wrote my blog. You would puke reading it. I puked! Oh, those years. You don't see those post since 2007 because I've changed and moved blogs so many times. I kept reading blogs and my expectation of my blog became different. I wanted my blog to be just like those blogs I read. I was sucked into the blogging world. I started learning how to do HTML. Well, I didn't learn. I copied what I wanted. I looked for the codes. I'm a bit lost nowadays. Nowadays, I buy templates. Why? Because I can afford to buy a layout. The real answers is: I'm Lazy. 

I hope you've enjoyed reading this. I enjoyed writing this post. More to come. I promise.